I am wrapped up in myself. I am selfish. I go on facebook more than I read my Bible. I talk to my friends more than I talk to God. I worry about paying for college more than I worry about where my next meal will come from.
But my heart is breaking, because I feel this anguish for what is going on in this world. So many tragedies that go unreported and unnoticed, places where hate festers and tensions tear nation apart. There are places where countless children die of AIDS, and because they don't have clean water, or food to eat. There are places where woman are sold to the highest bidder. There are places where genocides run rampant and people live in fear, where woman and children are raped and men are murdered. There are places where natural disasters strike and leave insurmountable pain and destruction in their wake. There are places where Christians are persecuted severely for the very thing I take for granted.
So I ask myself this... how can I not be moved by this? How can I watch these very people struggle and yet praise God while I, in my comfort, praise Him when it's convenient for my schedule? How can I sit here, knowing those people, those lives, those beating hearts matter, and be silent???
God... we are a world that has fallen so far from what You intended, and I cannot even fathom how much it breaks Your heart when people you have placed in opportunity do nothing when the people You love are hurting. I'm just me, I'm so unremarkable, but I want to be an instrument of change in Your name, because You are Remarkable. I pray for every broken heart in this world, every circumstance that is out of our hands. I pray that Your children could know Your goodness and Your comfort and Your love for them. I pray for every capable heart, that You would equip it with Your love, use the broken to lead the broken to Your cross and Your grace. God I don't get this world, it doesn't seem fair to me. But the people I see afflicted and in these circumstances, they have joy in Your name. They rely on you with a fierceness. I want to pursue You with that fierceness. I want to love people intentionally. Even though this world is messed up, You are a Healer and Fixer and You will whole everything that is broken. I love you.
1 comment:
Jess, I absolutely love reading your blog posts! You have such a heart for people everywhere and you constantly amaze me. You care about others, truly care, with a breath-taking humility and honesty that comes from God! I know that God is going to use that in you to do absolutely amazing things, and every time I read your blog or listen to your heart's yearnings I can't help but think that your heart is so wonderfully in tune with our Creator's own. You're such an inspiration, and you push others to be their best selves!
Love you!
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