A meadow grows, with long green grass, and hills rolling as far as the eye can see. Color intersperses amongst the green, a watercolor mix of reds, yellows, and purples. In my mind, nothing could be more lovely. As the sun shines down over the meadow, I dance, but am never fully satisfied. It is a good place, but something is missing.
And then you come along... you see my halfhearted movements and you call to me. You call me by name. I am terrified, for you seem to know me already and I'm not sure I know you. You are like a dream I remember dreaming, but never fully grasped until this moment, where I see you standing before me. You open your palm and extend it to me without saying a word, and I know you want me to come with you. My fear is gone because your eyes are so peaceful, and I feel safe with your hand in mine. And then you lead me.
As we walk hand in hand, I find we have left my lovely meadow, and where I once saw hills, there is only dry, parched land. I stumble over loose pebbles and become weary of the heat, and then I let go of your hand. You patiently wait as I struggle to get back to my feet, but find I cannot. And then I cry out to you, and you offer your hand. You lift me to my feet and wipe the tears from my dust-stained cheeks and the sweat from my soiled brow, and you tell me I am beautiful. I want to believe you, I want to love you. I just can't cling to the peace in your eyes anymore. I miss my meadow, and long for the comforting reverie of the clusters of brightly colored flowers, for the refreshing breeze to mingle with my hair. I yearn for the familiarity, because I know I loved it there. Fresh tears fall, and you catch every single one. You offer me your precious promises, and whisper grace over the places in my heart that don't desire you. And I know I could love you more than anything.
We journey long, and we journey hard. So many times I long to just give up, to stop walking and to just let the desert engulf me, but you spur me on. And one day, the desert scene changes. Where the land was parched and sun-scorched, there are streams, and the streams turn to rivers. The cracked dirt sprouts forth into grass, and trees and flowers dance lightly with the most refreshing of breezes. Every color is more vibrant than I have ever seen, and every detail more intricate than my mind has ever known. I am in love with you, and we dance as you whisper to me that you love me, that I am beautiful, and that I am yours. I rejoice at where you have taken me from, and what you have taken me through, because it has brought me into the most beautiful of places, into the most love I've ever felt, with you.
2 comments:
Amen, Jess! I love the picture that this paints, that even though we are struggling through a desert, God is right there by our side, every step of the way. Even if it means he has to pick us up and carry us awhile before setting us back on our feet.
"In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." Romans 3:37
Jess! I love the power in your writing! Not only are you so good at painting a picture with your words, your writing has so much feeling, and so much meaning behind the words. I LOVE this post! So so powerful!
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